Okay, I apologize to those that became a bit overly concerned about my post on Thursday. I didn’t mean to make you worry about me. Yes, I am overly stressed and having some anxiety lately, but I’m handling it a bit better than it sounded. Obviously, I have my days, but I’m not quite to the point where you have to take away my shoelaces and all sharp, pointy objects.

I’m actually pretty happy today. My family is swarming into Columbus to join Shawn and I in the March of Dimes Walk tomorrow. I think that it will be a lot of fun, even if it does rain. I’m fill you in on the details and share some photos in the next few days.

I’m also quite relieved that we closed on the house yesterday. We won’t be moving in for a couple weeks due to painting, cleaning the carpets, etc. but at least I no longer have to stress about whether or not we’ll get the house. It’s ours. I’m sure I’ll be posting about making grueling decisions about paint colors and furniture placement soon enough.

I’m also quite touched by everyone’s concern. It’s bit hell lately and I really don’t know how I’d get through it without all your love and support. You’ve all be so wonderful and understanding, it really means the world to me. Thank you all.

I usually have a constant stream of thoughts running through my head, but lately it seems more like a river. It’s at the point where I’m overflowing my banks here. I thought that I’d write some of them out so I might be able to get some relief.

. . . . . I can’t wait to get out of the temporary apartment, I feel so in limbo here I just want to be in a real home and feel settled. I also hate having to drive all over, the traffic on this side of town is a mess. I think that Ohio drivers are worse than Wisconsin, this is shocking. I have one more year on my lease and have no idea if I want to take over Shawn’s car like we originally planned. We have the March of Dimes walk this weekend and my family is coming into town, please let this godforsaken rain stop for a few hours so we don’t have to walk in the rain. The cemetery still doesn’t have the marker in place for the twins. Why is it taking so long? I want everything settled there so they can rest. It bothers me. I have to go to the funeral home and pick up the death certificates and I’m not sure if I can handle that. We are closing on the house tomorrow, please don’t let anything crazy happen with the wire transfer so we can close. I want to move into the house immediately and Shawn doesn’t seem to care about waiting. I wonder how Walter is going to like the new house. Lord, he is shedding like crazy, I need to vacuum. I hate the vacuum here, it sucks. Haha, that was lame. I feel guilty about missing my stuff. Iron, vacuum, pots and pans, blender, my bed. I am looking forward to getting new furniture and things for the house but sometimes feel like I might be too materialistic when I get excited about it. I’ve been doing yoga again and it feels great. I need new workout clothes. I have to go to the gym today. Where is my hairbrush? I still haven’t ordered Shawn an iPad for his birthday and it’s been over for a month today. . . . .